I enjoyed everything about General Conference last week. When the weekend ended, I felt uplifted and inspired. It was so comforting and peaceful to be able to watch conference and hear the voice of a prophet as opposed to all the doom and gloom of everything else on TV in the past few weeks.
I was especially impacted by the General Relief Society meeting two weeks ago. I almost didn't go and kept telling myself that I could just record it and watch it at home, like I have many times in the past. I am so glad I didn't do that. Getting dressed up and being in the chapel with other sisters who I know and love made a huge difference in my experience with this meeting. I will always go to the chapel for the broadcast in the future.

I have been thinking of Elder Uchtdorf's talk ever since. I have discussed the talk with Tim and anyone else who will listen and I watched it three more times and downloaded it to my phone so I could listen to it while I run. He spoke of creation and compassion and gave me a lot to think about. His talk touched on so many things that I have been realizing about myself in the past few months. I felt like it was just for me--a wonderful tender mercy from the Lord.
CREATION
"You may think you don’t have talents, but that is a false assumption, for we all have talents and gifts, every one of us.5 The bounds of creativity extend far beyond the limits of a canvas or a sheet of paper and do not require a brush, a pen, or the keys of a piano. Creation means bringing into existence something that did not exist before—colorful gardens, harmonious homes, family memories, flowing laughter.What you create doesn’t have to be perfect. So what if the eggs are greasy or the toast is burned? Don’t let fear of failure discourage you. Don’t let the voice of critics paralyze you—whether that voice comes from the outside or the inside." I have always joked with Tim about how I am a very mediocre person. I have never really been the best at anything or been really exceptional in one area. I have never considered myself to be a talented person. My experiences of being the young womens president, really turned that thinking around for me. My talents and gifts are not with the canvas, the brush, the pen, etc., as President Uchtdorf said. But I have come to realize that this is okay and this is the way my Heavenly Father created me. I don't know his purposes behind it, but this is what he gave me. The creation comes in how I choose to develop myself and to use what I have been given to bless others. Oh, and Elder Uchtdorf brought some really good news--I don't have to be PERFECT!! What?! You mean that being who I am and trying my best is enough!!! YAHOO!!!! I can do that. My toast is usually burnt and it's okay.
COMPASSION
As we lift others, we rise a little higher ourselves. President Spencer W. Kimball taught, “The more we serve our fellowmen in appropriate ways, the more substance there is to our souls.”9 "President Lorenzo Snow expressed a similar thought: “When you find yourselves a little gloomy, look around you and find somebody that is in a worse plight than yourself; go to him and find out what the trouble is, then try to remove it with the wisdom which the Lord bestows upon you; and the first thing you know, your gloom is gone, you feel light, the Spirit of the Lord is upon you, and everything seems illuminated.”10 In today’s world of pop psychology, junk TV, and feel-good self-help manuals, this advice may seem counterintuitive. We are sometimes told that the answer to our ills is to look inward, to indulge ourselves, to spend first and pay later, and to satisfy our own desires even at the expense of those around us. While there are times when it is prudent to look first to our own needs, in the long run it doesn’t lead to lasting happiness."
I loved what President Uchtdorf said about compassion and service. His words have changed my perspective on what having true compassion is. I know that there is no greater way to found happiness. The world sends us messages about "having it all" and putting our needs first, but that is not what will get us through the long haul of this life. I am still thinking about all of this and trying to find the application to my life. Part of what I came away with was that I can have a whole lot more compassion at home, with my own family. I am working on ways to be better at this.
President Uchtdorf's concluding words were this:
"You are choice daughters of our Heavenly Father, and through the things you create and by your compassionate service, you are a great power for good. You will make the world a better place. Lift up your chin; walk tall. God loves you. We love and admire you."
I have taken these words, and all the words spoken at General Conference to heart. I want to live what I know is true.